Thoughts

Here are some random thoughts from the corner of my brain!

August 2022

9/8/2022 3:45 PM - I found my old glasses the other day, which I hot when I was 7 and used until I was like 10, and holy HECK, is my prescription from then weaker than the one I have now! Like wow!

9/8/2022 4:46 PM - I feel like my voice is really weird. Like I've been trying to do voice training for a little bit now and I don't think it's really masculine, just weird. It reminds me of this secretary that was at the dentist's office yesterday, who sounded vaguely like Mabel from Gravity Falls, or whoever that actress played on Bob's Burgers.

10/8/2022 5:46 PM - Voice insecurities again! I feel like my voice isn't feminine enough, ugh. I hate that.

11/8/2022 8:33 AM - Ugh, we don't have any good cereal. We have a bunch of half-rate store brands, and none of them are even that good. I guess I'll just have some saltine crackers or something.

11/8/2022 10:09 AM - I feel like I had something that I meant to do today that I forgot. Oh well.

11/8/2022 11:28 AM - Can y'all see this? I think Neocities is screwed up or something because my updates don't seem to be pushing out.

14/8/2022 8:45 PM - I love garlic bread so much!

15/8/2022 3:43 PM - One of my favourite things is when I'm eating chocolate ice cream and I get to the part when it's kind of creamy!

18/8/2022 11:27 AM - I'm at school and my psychology class was supposed to start at 11:15 and it's IS which I think is independent study? And the classroom where it's supposed to be is empty and I'm waiting outside but I'm the only one waiting? I'm honestly scared and confused, and honestly shivering a bit since it's pretty cool sitting on the floor. Maybe there was a scheduling conflict? I sent the teacher an e-mail message so I'll just see if she responds soon. God willing, she will!

18/8/2022 11:45 AM - So I couldn't find the teacher at all, and she still hasn't responded to my e-mail, plus, the middle school principal (I'm in high school, but it's a prek-12th grade school all in one big building) tried to help me look but couldn't find her. Also, apparently IS is (woah, that's weird) independent study. Good heavens. I guess I'll just try to work on my site until she shows up, though class is only supposed to be another ten minutes or so.

19/8/2022 1:22 PM - Man, I could really go for some chicken and dumplings right now.

21/8/2022 7:19 PM - I love fresh French bread!

21/8/2022 8:18 PM - Do you ever just listen to one of your old favourite songs that you haven't listened to in ages and forget how amazing it is? Because that just happened to me with the song Milky Way by BoA.

22/8/2022 11:37 AM - Q: What do you call a devout ape? A: A monk-ey!

24/8/2022 9:41 AM - I feel like my iPod's shuffle (and the shuffle on iTunes and my iPhone, too) must have some sort of bias against Verivery because I have about the same amount of Girls' Generation songs and Verivery songs on my favourite playlist but I hear way more Girls' Generation compared to Verivery. What's up with that?

24/8/2022 2:29 PM - So I'm in Study Hall right now and I really have to cough but I've already coughed multiple times and I feel guilty for disrupting other people by coughing so I might go to the bathroom just to cough.

28/8/2022 8:08 PM - I'm sick of school. I have to summarize an academic article after getting back from a very tiring school retreat. I don't want to do this.

29/8/2022 7:12 PM - Why does it keep saying it's going to rain and then not raining? It barely sprinkled today and it thundered yesterday but didn't rain. Ugh!

30/8/2022 9:18 PM - This is less of a thought and more of a little thing I need to share. So a little earlier, I was in front of the Best Buy dancing to Catch Me If You Can by Girls' Generation, and this skater guy who looked 20 or so just shouted (in a very manly voice!) "I love your dancing!" and I shouted back "oh thanks!" and he just shouted back "fuck yeah!". So yeah, that was fun! Ya girl is starved for compliments from guys, so that kind of made my evening.

31/8/2022 3:18 PM - Why did I choose to take AP Calculus?

31/8/2022 9:03 PM - It's really odd seeing the divide of straight trans people who identify with the LGBT community and those who don't. I tend to fall into the latter camp myself, but know some of the former, partially through a Discord server I'm in.

September 2022

1/9/2022 8:39 PM - I'm not ready for it to be September yet! I feel like the school year's barely started, but I also kid of feel like it (and August) just dragged on. I hope that September's a much better month for me and for all y'all!

2/9/2022 11:02 AM - It's finally raining! It's only properly rained here once like all summer! And it's really coming down out there! Hell yeah! :D

2/9/2022 8:17 PM - I feel like I don't have enough free time these days! Even when I have the entire afternoon off, like today, because it's Friday, I still feel like I need more free time. I miss holiday!

3/9/2022 8:52 PM - Whatever happened to Cody from Step by Step? I wonder where he is now.

5/9/2022 7:01 PM - OK, so before dinner, I went on a walk around my neighbourhood, and it was overcast, and With Us by Verivery came on my iPod, and it gave me the feels! It hit me with so much nostalgia for their 2021 tour date that I attended. BTW, check out my new page on that here! Anyways, it was such a cool moment.

5/9/2022 8:59 PM - What the hell is a reflective essay? Ugh. I'll just leave it for tomorrow.

6/9/2022 7:05 PM - I just took an hour-long walk through my neighbourhood and I'm so tired, ugh! And I only saw one cute guy! I normally like to take a walk outside in the evenings to de-stress, but I'm trying to stay alive here. I'll certainly make my walk tomorrow shorter! Who cares if I fill my Fitbit rings or dots or whatever?!?

8/9/2022 8:56 PM - Today still feels like it's not real. Today is historic and strange.

9/9/2022 8:57 PM - My back hurts like hell, and I don't know why. What the heck is up with that?!?

10/9/2022 7:52 PM - I'm so sick of tacos

13/9/2022 8:47 PM - I saw this couple at my school kissing a ton today and now I wish I had a boyfriend, but oh well.

17/9/2022 8:37 PM - What's with 8 out of 10 Cats? What's with the two other cats? I kinda have a crush on Cody from Step by Step, honestly.

19/9/2022 7:52 PM - A few hours ago it was raining! Woot woot! It also rained a little at like 4 AM (I woke up in the night). But sadly, though it was rainy/cloudy until 4 or 5 PM, it's not rainy anymore. :(

21/9/2022 9:13 AM - 1) I think I may have gone a little overboard with the hairspray on my bangs this morning. (I put hairspray on my bangs because otherwise they fall out.) But on the other hand, they have yet to fall out, so maybe I actually put in a good amount. In other news, I've been listening to the same song on repeat for the past 45 minutes or so - Good Life by Tiffany from Girls' Generation and Henry from Super Junior-M. (The same song that was my song of the day on the blog post yesterday.)

21/9/2022 3:16 PM - I just read through my COVID journal from 2020, and 1) it's weird seeing how I referred to myself back then, because I thought I was a gay boy and not a straight girl, and 2) I shook my head disapprovingly at so many parts, because ya girl made so many bad choices back then. Seriously, what was I thinking?

22/9/2022 11:07 AM - My hair is so cool today. Ya girl looks bomb.com! (Is that a proper sentence?)

22/9/2022 3:11 PM - We just listened to psychedelic rock in my history of rock n roll class, and now I want to perform an exorcism and go read the Bible. Seriously, that was genuinely scary.

22/9/2022 8:40 PM - Where are all the kind, sweet, romantic, cute guys my age and why aren't any of them in Missouri?

23/9/2022 4:22 PM - I think I forgot how nice it is to just curl up on the couch and browse the Web!

26/9/2022 2:21 PM - I'm sitting in the student lounge using some random MacBook charger someone left out. Can computers get hand-foot-mouth?

27/9/2022 9:55 PM - I really wish I had more free time, especially to work on this Web site! Now I know what they meant when they said junior year is your hardest year. At least my parents let me have a study hall this year! Or rather, when I dropped Publications for a study hall they didn't raise much protest.

29/9/2022 8:33 PM - And at last, my most pressing responsibilities for this week are done! God willing, I won't have much weekend homework (seriously, the point of the weekend is to relax and unwind! Weekend homework is so idiotic.) and I can relax and unwind! Next week's a four-day week for teacher to write comments, so there's that. I'm tired though, because I have so much crap to do!

30/9/2022 5:19 PM - For a second, my Intel MacBook Air's fan was so quiet that you could barely hear it... but alas, that's over. Seriously, probably my one complaint with this computer (I haven't even had any problems whatsoever with the butterfly keyboard!) is that the heating must be kinda crappy because the fan is almost always on. What's with that?

October 2022

1/10/2022 1:43 PM - I just had a sandwich with avocado for the first time in ages! :D

1/10/2022 2:35 PM - Just popped by a yard sale in the neighbourhood with my mum. I told her we should've stopped by earlier, since there were three in one cul-de-sac that all ended at 3, but she only wanted to go now, and so two were closed, but oh well. For 6 dollars I got a Mrs Pollifax book (with a quote by Angela Lansbury from Murder, She Wrote on the back!), a little lamp looking thing with a baby candle in it, two maple leaf things with baby candles in them, and a cool bracelet, and my mum got some little model horses. So it was decent.

2/10/2022 2:07 PM - I should study but I reeeeaaaalllllyyyyyy don't want to. Oh well.

2/10/2022 10:07 PM - My Internet is acting up :( Also I want to drink some water

3/10/2022 8:28 PM - How am I already stressed? It's only Monday! This is going to be such a fun week!

4/10/2022 10:09 PM - Chips ahoy! I wish I had a boyfriend.

5/10/2022 9:33 AM - I have my double block of self-study psych this morning and I actually got my work done early! :D I'll work on some other homework now for the rest of the period, so I have less of a load, but I decided I'd take a minute or two to pop on here and just relax.

5/10/2022 1:49 PM - I GOT A 105% ON MY CHEMISTRY TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7/10/2022 4:49 PM - I'm sitting on the couch watching TV and surfing the Web with the window open! There's only one problem: I have what must be allergies and/or it being dry as heck, because my nose is clogged like that M25 in those Vines.

9/10/2022 12:04 PM - My Kraft dinner's in the microwave and won't be done for almost 10 minutes, but I'm already starving :(

9/10/2022 7:04 PM - I feel like this page is getting a little too cluttered, so I'll probably haveg to split it up into monthly pages. But oh well. Anyways, I don't really have any idea of what to add to the site today, so I probably won't do much here tonight.

11/10/2022 9:56 AM - It's super gloomy and rainy this morning! :D I love the rain so much, y'all, genuinely. And I think my cold is starting to wane!

14/10/2022 9:51 PM - Tomorrow is going to be such a rad day

15/10/2022 4:27 PM - It's been a 2012 kind of day today! I miss 2012

16/10/2022 2:06 PM - Do you ever just like... forget to have lunch intil 2:00 PM?

16/10/2022 4:09 PM - It's 4 PM and I've already accomplished pretty much everything I need to do today! What kind of feeling is this? I even finished the (admittedly small amount of) homework I had to do before church, and finished the laundry I had to fold around 3:00!

17/10/2022 9:52 PM - Why do I always fall into rabbit holes on the Web? I planned to work on my site but instead fell into a little rabbit hole about theology on Web forums.

19/10/2022 6:53 PM - I want a boyfriend!

20/10/2022 10:07 PM - I want water, and also a boyfriend

21/10/2022 6:53 PM - I was about to live vicariously by playing The Sims, and of course it decides that the game needs to update. Oh well, I guess that'll have to wait until after dinner. :(

22/10/2022 7:25 PM - I took a Uquiz which really made me crave a sandwich but 1) I don't think we have the fixings for a sandwich and 2) we're already having ham and beans for dinner. Oh well.

23/10/2022 10:05 PM - You know what has a really specific ambience? Being outside of my grandparents' house, in a quiet area, when it's dark outside and really windy. I don't know how to describe it, but it's very specific.

24/10/2022 3:28 PM - I'm sitting in a classroom right now during my study hall and it's raining pretty heavily outside and I love it! :D For those of y'all who don't know, ya girl loves the rain, and it's very welcome today. :)

25/10/2022 11:27 AM - I was just writing some HTML during class (because I'm such a good student), and my gay best friend saw and was immediately all like "oh my gosh are you writing code? Is that python?". Just wanted to say that here.

26/10/2022 9:39 AM - Why is my psych textbook so power-hungry? I used it for about an hour and my laptop's at 70% of battery left. So now I'm going to be slightly anxious about its battery for the rest of the day. Is this the Intel Mac life in 2022? I mean seriously, apparently the Apple silicon Macs get like 20 hours of battery. That's two or three days of use for me, maybe four! But I'll probably get one soon enough, when I go off to university, to last me a long while. But part of me feels like that's an unnecessary expense, and I should just carry on using my current Intel Air as long as I humanly can. I don't know, we'll see.

26/10/2022 10:11 PM - Update: I made it through the day without my battery dying!

27/10/2022 11:17 AM - I had an English work day, and was just getting into the flow of writing my essay when class ended! And of all the days for me not to have a study hall...

29/10/2022 2:55 PM - The power went out this morning, and of course, it was just as I was watching a k-pop video on YouTube. And the Internet connection is being twitchy as well.

29/10/2022 6:12 PM - I'm literally in the backyard, laying on my stomach in the grass, on my laptop. If I wasn't using a Mac, you could swear this was a Windows XP ad!

30/10/2022 7:56 AM - It's all dark and gloomsy outside, and I'm cozied up on the couch :D

November 2022

1/11/2022 9:02 AM - 1) Why are tangent lines of trig functions so hard? and 2) Why does something helping Swedish people choose a higher level high school keep e-mailing me?

2/11/2022 8:38 AM - It's getting to that weird point of the year where the day is pretty short already, but Daylight Saving Time hasn't ended yet, so I'm technically waking up before sunrise! And when I do wake up, I always think it's cloudy outside, which gives me false hope. Also, I'm sitting in the library for my self-study psych period and these two freshmen were just gossipping in full earshot. So yeah.

2/11/2022 12:42 PM - Oh my gosh. More updates later.

5/11/2022 8:14 PM - 1) I completely forgot what I was "oh my gosh"-ing about last time, so no updates for all y'all. Anyways, I appreciate Firefox existing, but why does its rendering engine do like two certain things so weird? Firstly, it makes my navbar contents taller for some reason, so sometimes things look fine on my main browser, Edge, but they're cut off on Firefox. Also, why are its marquees so janky? I do love the way it renders my fireworks effect, though, so it's not all bad.

7/11/2022 2:05 PM - Why do I feel less bogged-down with work now compared to the weekend?

15/11/2022 9:46 AM - Long time no update, eh? Anyways, I've almost finished with my calculus test, except for one page front-and-back of FRQs that I'll do tomorrow. I feel pretty good on the multiple-choice, and pretty decent on the FRQs that I've done so far. I'm still kind of scared, though. I don't really feel like there's much else that I can do to prepare for tomorrow, besides I guess just doing a couple of problems tonight. So yeah.

17/11/2022 11:36 AM - I thought my necklace that I wear every day was gone all morning, and was super worried, and then realized that I had been wearing it the entire time. It's one of those days.

22/11/2022 11:38 AM - One of my favourite things to do is to just lay back on the couch with my iPod playing and close my eyes and just kinda listen to music! Also, I'm hungry and I wanna start updating my site more.

23/11/2022 7:38 AM - VERIVERY GOT THEIR FIRST WINNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

25/11/2022 8:22 AM - VERIVERY GOT THEIR SECOND WINNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

December 2022

6/12/2022 11:52 AM - I'm having noodles for lunch!! :D

28/12/2022 8:14 PM - The highest form of personal growth is realizing that late night TV shows (and especially their dry political jokes) aren't really that funny.

January 2023

4/1/2022 9:27 AM - I think the electrolytes are helping, so I'll hope and pray that they keep helping and that I get better soon!

19/1/2022 11:57 AM - 1) First-gen k-pop is underappreciated and 2) some seniors are causing a ruckus in the library!